INSIDE MAN

IT SEEMS THAT ALL THIS TIME, I HAVE BEEN WORKING TOWARD ESTABLISHING A PRACTICE—BUT ONLY NOW AM I BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND HOW I ARRIVED AT THIS CONCLUSION. I AM JUST REACHING A POINT WHERE I FEEL I HAVE A CLEARER GRASP OF MY INTENTIONS AND THE PARAMETERS NEEDED TO SUPPORT THEM.

THIS PROCESS HAS LARGELY BEEN INTERNAL—A LONG PERIOD OF THINKING, REFINING, AND CONCEPTUALISING, WITH ONLY SPORADIC EXTERNAL ATTEMPTS TO ACT ON THOSE IDEAS. I CAN’T HELP BUT WONDER: COULD THERE HAVE BEEN ANOTHER WAY? OR WAS THIS INTERNAL WORK NECESSARY TO BRING ME UP TO SPEED BEFORE I COULD ENTER THE GAME?

I THEN CONSIDER WHETHER THIS IDEA IS SOMEHOW ANALOGOUS TO THE BIBLICAL CONCEPT OF “SEEKING THE KINGDOM FIRST”—THE NOTION THAT FOCUSING ON FOUNDATIONAL WORK CREATES THE CONDITIONS FOR EVERYTHING ELSE TO FOLLOW.